This post is so super duper long overdue. I kept putting it off because I have so much to say about this. But the more time passes, the more I realize that I don't need to say all that much. I just need to tell my story.
When I pictured having a baby, I always pictured myself nursing my child. I couldn't imagine anything else - my baby's face, what the nursery looked like, anything - but the one thing that I always saw was myself nursing a little bundle. So I set my mind on it. I took a "Breastfeeding 101" class at the hospital, I read up on as many things as I could, and I mentally prepared myself for sore nipples and leaky boobs. A couple hours after giving birth, I latched him on (he needed to go to the nursery immediately after birth so I couldn't nurse right away). Everything seemed fine, he seemed content. Fast forward a week to his one week appointment... all good, he was back up to his birth weight, feeding well, no problem! Fast forward a little more, to his one month appointment, and well, still at birth weight. I was crushed. I was starving my child. (I wasn't really, and it certainly wasn't on purpose.) So after being told I needed to supplement, I said okay, I'll do what I need to to get his weight back up but I will nurse him until we are both good and ready to stop - and I'm only supplementing until I absolutely have to. It took weeks. It wasn't easy. Making milk was my full time job. I read everything I could about increasing production. I spent my extra moments baking lactation cookies, power pumping, and guzzling water like it was nobody's business. Eventually, there came a point where I didn't have to supplement any more. The day he finished nursing and rejected a bottle, I cried. I must have looked insane. But I was so happy. My hard work was paying off. For the next few months I stressed a lot over milk. I ended up going back to work when he was 3 months old and had to pump. I could only just get enough for him most days. But as a teacher, I knew I only had two months to go and then I would be able to continue nursing him through the summer. So I pushed through and I made it - pumping during every break at work, and nursing as much as I could as soon as I walked through the door in the afternoon. I made it. And a year later, I'm still making it. Granted, I only nurse twice a day now, but after June, I didn't have to supplement once. He stayed exclusively on breast milk until 6 months, at which point we started introducing solids (very slowly). So how did I do it? There are a few key things I did that really helped me.
Like I said, my body never responded well to the pump, but pumping definitely kept my supply going. Kellymom.com was my greatest resource, and I got so much help from going there. If nursing is what you really want to do, don't let anyone tell you you can't do it! A lot of women are told they don't produce enough, but then are not given the tools to help them make what they need! If I could do it, you certainly can, too. And if you have questions, don't hesitate to ask! xo, Jen
Dyana
4/8/2016 02:30:57 am
It takes work and patience too, but what a blessing huh? Being their mommy is absolutely fascinating. xoxo
Ashley
4/8/2016 08:36:47 am
Loved this post! Tears just started rolling down my face as I read it! Thank you for sharing!! From day one with Siena my biggest worry has been feeding her. I can't tell you how much it has helped to hear your story and others to know that we aren't alone in this! I was one of the lucky ones to have a great milk supply from the beginning but I struggled so much with breast feeding. Like you, I knew I wanted to breast feed. But on the third day In the hospital I looked down to see that my baby girl had a mouth full of blood from my damaged nipples. I was devastated... From the pain but more so because I felt like I would never be able to nurse again. I felt like a failure and a terrible Mommy. I didn't want anyone else feeding her. I cried through the bottles of formula I fed her in the hospital. As soon as I got home from the hospital I started exclusively pumping every 2 hours day and night, drinking Mothers Milk tea 4-5 times a day, and finding bottles that weren't huge for a newborn. I was determined to stop the formula and only feed her my milk with a bottle while my nipples healed. My doctor even couldn't believe how bad they were. He prescribed me a steroid cream that he said would heal them within a couple of days. It took about 3 weeks for them to be healed but I kept pumping through it all. My milk came in fast and I only supplemented with formula for about a week and half. I was producing about 40oz a day and had plenty with some left over to freeze for later. I still wanted to breast feed so bad but I was so scared to try again. I didn't want to feel like a failed mommy again but my husband convinced me to try and had my back the whole way. Surprisingly at 5 weeks she latched without a problem and nursed like a pro! She is 6 weeks now and we are nursing and pumping and trying to find a routine. It is still an every day struggle and it takes a lot of work but I owe a lot of this to you! You kept telling me to keep trying...to never give up...it will get easier...and it has! Being a mommy is the best blessing ever! Thank you Jenise! So happy you started your blog! ❤️
Jenise
4/8/2016 08:39:50 am
Ash this makes me so so so happy! My intent is ALWAYS to help other mommies get through the struggles. It's hard. It's unimaginably hard. But it IS the best ever. And we CAN do it. So proud of you for sticking it out and making it work! It will get easier, I promise! Love you! Comments are closed.
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